The second time that I was sexually
assaulted. I was 20. My friend was turning 21 in the summer and
were going to the bars around MSU and I was going to be the designated driver
and make sure that he got safely to our friend’s apartment. I had been around him when he was drinking
before for 2+ years, nothing had ever happened. As we were walking across campus to our friend’s
apartment, he was stumbling, but he was coherent. When we were walking side by side, the first
thing that he did was grab me, reach in my cleavage and pinch my breast. He laughed because he said that it was
something that he had always wanted to do.
I decided that it would be best if I walked ahead of him and kept my
distance. However, a few minutes later
he ran into me and knocked me on the ground.
I started yelling for him to get off me and I realized that my dress was
going up. I was wearing a long
sundress. I started yelling “What are
you doing?” and I kept trying to push him off me. During that time, he kept asking me “Why wasn’t
I any fun?” He got up and gave up. He started mumbling, “I wasn’t any fun.” and “I
was frigid.” Anyway, we made to the apartment,
I went to sleep on the couch, and he spent the rest of the night in the
bathroom. The next day, I was angry and
he was hung over and claiming that he did not remember anything that happened that
night. I did not report it. I did not tell my mother. The first time I told her was a disaster, and
I was not going through that again. However,
when we returned back I was angry. When
we returned to school in the fall, I decided to confront him. His response was not “I am sorry. I don’t know what happened.” Instead, it was “You know you being a virgin
was cute at first, but now it’s old.
What are you saving it for?” I do
not remember what I said after that. However,
I never knew that management of my body was cute or quaint. I am a human being. The arrogance of the statement did two
things. Besides shocking me, it let me
know where I stood then and in the past.
Now, I knew the truth, I had spent time with someone who had never
respected me as a human being. The friendship
that I thought we had was a lie and the trust was gone. However, at least he was honest.
The truth is the Republican Senate does
not care if Brett Kavanaugh assaulted these women or not. All of it is just an inconvenience to
them. Even in 2018, if true, these are
just some women crying about juvenile indiscretions in the past. In addition, the women are trying to ruin his
life. Their lives were never important. They were not Privileged White Men and they were
not up for a Supreme Court Judge position. At least if you told the truth, we would truly
know what we were fighting. In addition,
it would show that you have a spine.
